I have been very hard on myself lately. I feel like I am not allowed to be proud of myself or accept compliments about what I have done, because I don't want people to think that I am a model for them to follow after or feel jealous of. I feel like because I'm underweight, spent a year in therapy and am now on antidepressants that I have to downplay all my accomplishments, because I had to pay a price for them.
But I DO want to be proud of myself for a moment, just right now, today.
I want to be a Speech-Language Pathologist, and I have worked my tail off to accomplish that dream. In working towards this, I have obtained a 3.98 GPA and got a high enough score on the GRE English section to be eligible for Harvard {my quant score was barely below}.
I began my five grad school applications in October, and I worked diligently to ensure that I wrote the perfect CV and statements of intent. I was very grateful for professors and family members who helped me to edit these essays, and I was very grateful for those who spent the time to write my letters of rec. Dallin found out that he might be able to graduate a semester early, so I decided to take a leap and apply to schools in Arizona {although he wanted me to apply to Ivy Leagues, which was cute and funny, I did not do that}. It would have been hard to be without him for a semester, but we could do it!
It has been a long, long, long time of waiting. Finally, I heard back. I was put on an alternate list for BYU. And then I was accepted into ASU, UA, UofU and USU! The former three are all top programs in the United States. I decided that I will attend UofU starting in August, and I couldn't be more excited.
If I'm being honest, I was very disappointed to not get into BYU after my interview {which was the morning after the announcement that university was going online}, but I like to think that maybe God was nudging me along on this one to make sure I go to the place I'm supposed to go to. I think I was more disappointed at the concept of being rejected, as if it was saying something about my personal character, than about not actually going to BYU. I have loved BYU and the professors here, but I think I wanted to go for the wrong reasons: it's closer, it's cheaper, it's familiar, it's where my friends are going. But I love change, and I wasn't uber-excited at the concept of spending another two years in the Taylor building clinic.
On the other hand, when I toured the UofU clinic, I absolutely loved it! UofU is also heavily medical-based, which I think could be a really good fit for me. It is a highly-acclaimed school. I am so excited to meet new professors, new students, and learn new perspectives.
I am just so grateful that my hard work and sacrifices are paid off. Do I need to learn some better balance in my life? Yeah. But I am so thrilled for the opportunity to get specialized training and to begin working with clients. And then I will be on my way to be an SLP.













































